Whelp, June did not go as planned. I definitely felt very rushed and cornered because I bout of depression-based executive disfunction caught me by the throat (this whole post-pandemic job-search thing is really starting to get to me...). Beyond that, Star Wars has kind of taken over my life a bit, which is a new obsession that I've allowed myself to dive headlong into because it was something to be excited about (while everything else I've been attempting to work on was feeling like it was predetermined to end in failure).
At the very least I can fall back on the lovely knowledge that I easily more than met my goal for the month's general word count... I wound up with a final daily average of 2,608 and a final count of ~78,250, which is technically a better result than last month, but I got less of the goals I'd set for myself even half accomplished... It means I'm both mildly pleased and disappointed in myself for it all, but here's how it breaks down: |
Literally all I worked on this past month. at all, were my job applications and my new Star Wars obsession story... It's not even a single story, it's a hodge-podge of like 3 potential stories that all have the same theme (and currently the same title) that MAY eventually take shape enough to be posted on Ao3... Basically, I just wanted to run through a head-space hop-scotch game of the Clone Wars characters as Ahsoka Tano proves herself to be rather more grown up than the others would like to think of her. |
I am quite fond of what I've come up with for this Star Wars thing, but the stories will need a lot more work to be even half presentable as legit fics. And I'm mostly focused on whipping the BatFam / SPN crossover story into shape for posting. If I get a bit more of that finished and polished up, I should be able to start posting 2 chapters per week (so each story will get a new chapter once per week instead of how I currently have them alternating)... But that's a thing I won't be able to manage until at least August.
Also, Sun & Stars unfortunately is slipping off the table, because it is just too difficult to keep up with all the research when I can't pass any of it off as classwork. When I had a class focused on material objects and how human culture builds itself around them I was able to pick the Crusades as my area of focus, but now I'm in a fairly intense Linguistic seminar and this fall I have Literature, Ethics, and Human Rights course that's gonna be mostly focused on the 18th, 19th, and 20th centuries... So yeah, that Crusades research is just gonna be a lot harder to keep up with. Especially, if I don't get a higher-paying job and need to scrounge for extra shifts like I have been so far this summer... It's tragic, but it is what it is, and I would like to come back to it eventually. I do still have a few unedited / not-fully-fact-checked chapters in my word doc, that I'd like to finish cleaning up at get posted, so I'll hopefully be doing at least one of those this month, but that's about all I can offer for this story for the foreseeable future.
For now, I want to reaffix my focus to getting Assassin's Game published, so I'm aiming for another big push in query letters to lit agents. And of course, that whole getting-a-decent-job nonsense...
So, those are my two big focus-points for July.
Also, Sun & Stars unfortunately is slipping off the table, because it is just too difficult to keep up with all the research when I can't pass any of it off as classwork. When I had a class focused on material objects and how human culture builds itself around them I was able to pick the Crusades as my area of focus, but now I'm in a fairly intense Linguistic seminar and this fall I have Literature, Ethics, and Human Rights course that's gonna be mostly focused on the 18th, 19th, and 20th centuries... So yeah, that Crusades research is just gonna be a lot harder to keep up with. Especially, if I don't get a higher-paying job and need to scrounge for extra shifts like I have been so far this summer... It's tragic, but it is what it is, and I would like to come back to it eventually. I do still have a few unedited / not-fully-fact-checked chapters in my word doc, that I'd like to finish cleaning up at get posted, so I'll hopefully be doing at least one of those this month, but that's about all I can offer for this story for the foreseeable future.
For now, I want to reaffix my focus to getting Assassin's Game published, so I'm aiming for another big push in query letters to lit agents. And of course, that whole getting-a-decent-job nonsense...
So, those are my two big focus-points for July.
July 2021 Goals: - Query 9 Lit Agents - Post 1 Chapter of Sun & Stars. - Post 4 Chapters of Multiverse Mishap. - Post 8 Media Reviews - Make 3 other kinds of Post (special release, culture crit, write life, etc) - Submit 12 Job Applications **- Draft ~30k in [Star Wars] Not a Kid... | July 2021 Schedule: Monday: Post new chapter of Multiverse Mishap. (Bats Vers.) Tuesday: Post new chapter of Sun & Stars. (Hopefully) Wednesday: Post Media Review. Thursday: Special Access, Write Life, or Culture Crit posts. Friday: Post Media Review. Saturday: Post new chapter of Multiverse Mishap. (SPN Vers.) Sunday: No Post. |
It's not an excessive amount of work, at least not in terms of accomplishing the main, normal goals, but (as evidenced by the tacked on extra goal) I am also quite sure that I'll be posting a lot of new words as being part of the [Star Wars] Not a Kid semi-story, so hopefully I'll get at least one piece of that sorted out well enough to being posting it as a current project on Ao3... We'll just have to see what happens.
So, hopefully, we'll see something happen that shifts things towards a brighter future. But if not, I've at least got a handle on myself enough to know I tried... (It's really difficult not to feel like a lazy piece of shit when like 80% of my day often involves sitting on a couch, and then just a short bit of shift work... but I absolutely cannot focus on anything like a job app after a shift at one of my jobs... ADHD brain says when the shift is over the day is over... even if I get out of work at like 11am, which means to compensate and actually get shit done with my days I've been waking up at like 2am on the regular...).
We'll have to see how it all works out.
I hope you guys have a great July, a FANTASTIC 4th of July Weekend, and as always, if you think of anything you'd like me to write about, just drop me a line and I'll work it into the schedule post haste!
GOOD LUCK, Y'ALL!
So, hopefully, we'll see something happen that shifts things towards a brighter future. But if not, I've at least got a handle on myself enough to know I tried... (It's really difficult not to feel like a lazy piece of shit when like 80% of my day often involves sitting on a couch, and then just a short bit of shift work... but I absolutely cannot focus on anything like a job app after a shift at one of my jobs... ADHD brain says when the shift is over the day is over... even if I get out of work at like 11am, which means to compensate and actually get shit done with my days I've been waking up at like 2am on the regular...).
We'll have to see how it all works out.
I hope you guys have a great July, a FANTASTIC 4th of July Weekend, and as always, if you think of anything you'd like me to write about, just drop me a line and I'll work it into the schedule post haste!
GOOD LUCK, Y'ALL!